What is it about the holiday season that causes us to reflect on things and on our life? Recently I've been looking back through pictures from the last four or five years and realizing how much some things have changed, while others have remained constant. It has made me notice how there are so many of the same people over and over again in my pictures. To me this is a good thing, but it also causes me to realize that I should take pictures more often and with different people. Another way to put it is that I should get out more, or at least have my camera when I am out. I also realized that a good majority of these pictures are either somewhere in nature (i.e. a park, or beach) or they are spent playing with friends.
I also took the time to read comments for the ones that are on the internet. The comments brought back memories as well. It's fun to just look back through things and see what people thought. I also realized that there are people missing from pictures that if I had my way they would still be a part of. I took a moment, especially with the holidays upon us, to reflect on how different my life would be if they were still here and involved in it like they used to be. I am reminded of how much I've grown and been able to help people around me learn to cope with things that should never be asked of them. I'm also reminded of how many people have thought that I'm completely cold and unfeeling because I don't break down and lose it over so many things in this life. Myself and probably all of you reading this know that this is not the case, but you also know that I take things in perspective very well most of the time and that comparatively speaking many things in this life aren't worth the anxiety and general breakdown they are accompanied with. For me I can base things on what I've already come through and say that the new or current situation is not as bad as a previous one therefore I will make it through with the help of God and my friends because I have made it through worse. Granted there are curveballs that life is so good as sending us and I can say I've gotten a handful this year, but haven't we all? I can remember some of the things that took me completely by surprise and how I reacted in the same calm manner in all but two of them, and I realize that I have been and am truly blessed with some phenomenal people around me who are there to pick me up when I fall. I also know that there are people who I love that have been through so much worse than myself this year and again with the perspective thing, I know that everything has it's time and that I am still doing really well.
So the question looming on some of your minds can be answered by saying, yes, I'm doing good, no I'm not depressed though I am nostalgic, and I am anticipating what the next year will be bringing to all of us.
